KALAPUI

right , monday is social studies and math paper 1 . i am so hyped up for ss. i am supposed to study 4 chapters but i am studying 2. i am seriously waiting for 20th november to come. after that, it is hallalujah. :D what joy.

you know, several blogpost i have written about her. let just say i don t give a damn anymore. Rich simply can t tell me in the face that i am arrogant and love to attract attention and i have change. Honestly rich, if this is how you want it, then fine, we just go our separate ways. If you simply hate my presence so much, tell me straight in the face, afterall you been through so much hardship, surely you don t have the guts to tell me? I am not your toy , Rich. You don t just leave me there on the shelf to rot and play with me ONLY WHEN YOU LIKE IT. I am arrogant but you didn t tell me the examples so how do you expect me to change for you? But hold on, if we are friends, shoudln t we accept each toher good and bad points? well, hell to that man! it doesn t even matter to you even more. I don t understand why i am so discreet about it in the past, maybe because i respected you. So yeah, go play with your Eunice. She is all that matters.
i guess the ship have sank.

You know sometimes when i am so stressed from studying. i just can t stop thinking about people or things that have affected or caused a great impact in my life. I think about the person who almost killed my mother, i think about arguements. I don t understand. Why is it i am always at the loser end? Why is it i can t think at the positive side? Why do i have to torture myself this way? And for these type of questions, there is really no answers behind it all and therefore are we just left there clueless? Sometimes i just feel that the word ` FRIENDS` and `LOVE` can be such a nuisance in life. For me, they create nothing but troubles. However, i forgotten those people who give such great examples on these words, like my Mother , Yvonne , Peipei, Deborah and so on. If there are several good sides and bad sides in everyone, why is it that we are never fair? never fair in our doings?

i hate myself for my stupidity into falling into traps like this because some traps you fall into, you simply don t learn. I have forgotten the pain i have felt, the scars i have suffered from. It is like once again, a new experience for me everything except for the worse.

Yi Lin :

I was never talking bad about your friend, Lara. I was just refering to the virtual cat. It had never occured to me that the name Lara was a friend of yours. It was a misunderstanding between Deborah, you and I. We just wanted you to put a virtual dog called Rocky. It was never a harmful thing about your friend , Lara. So yeah, if i really hurt you, i am sorry.


Deborah:

Nobody ever said love was easy. Strive hard for Os (:

Pauline:

Waiting for that beautiful blogskin :D!